Even though Proverbs 3:5 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding,” has always been one of my favorite verses, I have recently come to the conclusion that I really have not been applying it to my life.
From the time I was quite young, I’ve had to do lots for myself. Get myself out of bed and off to school. Feed myself breakfast and make sure my homework was done. The only person I had to lean on was myself. At least that is what it felt like. When you are one of seven children and your mother works nights and your father might as well not be there, you learn to rely on yourself. My triumphs and my failures were my own.
Self reliance has become a way of life that I never seriously took a look at and yet I have railed at God so many times about the things that haven’t changed no matter how much I prayed. Giving it to God is not easy. It is a trust issue really. Do I trust God enough to let him be in control? Can I truly believe that He loves me and has my best interest in mind? Even when the circumstances in my life are not what I want them to be?
Maybe He allows things to come into our lives so that we reach out to Him or so that we can see that relying on ourselves is not always going to work. We need Him. We need to rest in Him and trust that He is who He says He is. God is our Father and if we can trust our earthly parents than how much more can we trust Him to do what is right in our lives.
Self reliance can become an idol in our lives because it takes our focus off of God. We have effectively put ourselves in the place where God should be in our life. I really don’t want to be in that place because I am not God nor do I wish to be. I don’t have the credentials to do His job. Yet when I trust in myself instead of Him my life life is saying the opposite.
No matter how long we have walked this walk there is always something to learn. Keep growing in His knowledge and you will go far.
It is time to relinquish control.